Um, yeah...totally us when we're old ladies.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
inner thoughts of a music teacher
Alright, well today was interesting...
I had my first visitation day for school, which basically means that the arts coordinator set up a half day where I spend time watching another music teacher in the district. I observed a teacher who taught at my school 3 years ago for one year. Apparently she didn't care for Falk and I was looking forward to meeting her, thinking that we might line up more as far as teaching philosophy. Well...I would say that it was nice to talk to someone who understands Falk. We talked about how the atmosphere is more negative there. It was nice to sort out how I feel with her that way. I like my students, feel like I've developed a good relationship with them, but it is hard to teach at Falk because the general staff there allows disrespect to happen. No one expects students to take responsibility for their actions, and own their behavior. "You have to understand where they are coming from and what their home life is like" - This is what I hear a lot. I don't see how I can settle for less than appropriate behavior, and have high expectations as far as this goes. I love my students, want to advocate for them, and also want them to know that they should be more respectful and responsible so that they can feel success. I heard a student saying something to an after school staff person along the lines of, "well, my parents will whoop me if I disrespect them, but you can't because you're a teacher!" Why is this okay? I just think that we should provide a positive environment, where they are intrinsically motivated to make good choices. The consequences for poor behavior at Falk are pathetic and have no impact. Someone, principal especially, needs to re-evaluate what is going on here. It makes it harder for a teacher, that is trying to do the right thing, to be consistent and effective. I can send a kid out to the recovery room, but I WANT to deal with conflicts/poor behavior on my own because I don't agree with the way things are done in the recovery room all of the time. It's like a kid throws a fit, waits it out, calms down, writes me a quick and meaningless sorry letter, and everyone moves on. What does that really show the kids??
And to go off on what else is on my mind... I was VERY disappointed to meet this teacher today only to find out that she pretty much only teaches stuff from K-8 magazine and MusicExpress. Now, I love both magazines and have gotten a lot of fun songs out of them, mostly for holidays and filler stuff. She is getting ready for a concert, and so I was thinking that was why it seemed like all they did was listen and sing along with a CD while doing some actions. Yes, the kids were engaged and having fun, BUT they weren't really learning anything. I think a lot of music teachers think that as long as they are engaged and loving music and singing that is enough. I don't think they realize the wealth of educational and historic songs that can teach elements of music, as well as be fun for kids. I learned this to the tenth degree last year being in a district that taught mostly using the Kodaly method because it is based on folk songs. Ok, when in theory I thought it was ridiculous that Dr. Cunningham thought we would know all of these old folk songs, and now I realize the value in those songs. I like how they have a historical purpose(ie. work songs), age appropriate melodies, and you can extend them with games. I don't use only older folk songs though. I also like finding new songs, about things in our current students lives, that are still fun but have that educational value. This music teacher today was saying that she hopes she teaches them "perhaps something about music and notes, but just to create music lovers and consumers is the goal". I think you can DO BOTH easily! Well, I shouldn't say easily, but if you do the work it is much more rewarding and effective. It is also not that hard to branch out to find more educational materials. I just think of my elementary music experience, straight out of the text book, and I don't really remember anything we did. I remember a small handful of songs, and absolutely nothing about reading music, and I wouldn't say it made me some kind of music lover. I also attribute that kind of half-ass early music education that I had to the fact that I was a timid and uncomfortable singer for many years, probably up until I student taught and had to do it all the time. I saw great music education happening every single day last year and it is disappointing to be away from it. I hate that it seems like all of the music teachers in Madison are like this too. We have two kinds, textbook teachers, and magazine teachers. The only good thing I can really see about these "styles" is that there is a large opportunity to use culturally appropriate songs and history. I would just rather push myself to find ways to do that with the way I am already doing things. I compare all of this to a middle/high school band teacher who only does pop songs or just runs music/teaches by rote. You could also compare it to a driven musician being placed in a ensemble that doesn't have as high of expectations or level of musicianship and doesn't care to improve. Frustrating...
Her classroom management was not impressive. Yes, the kids liked her and weren't killing each other. They were, however, walking around like they owned the place and interrupting her left and right. All I was thinking was "Julie put me with YOU?" Each teacher has their own style of classroom management though, and some are more comfortable this type of atmosphere. I just think you can have tons of fun, connect with students, while keeping things efficient and productive. I should not have to let kids go off on other topics just so they get a chance to share. If it applies and it is a quick story, by all means then share, but we don't need to waste 5 minutes flipping a flip form over to see what is underneath "just to get our curiosity out of the way". No, they don't need to see, move on and get them interested in what you are doing. Duh. This teacher said, "ready?" like a million times a class, and I thought of when Dr. Heidel pointed out that I kept doing that. I realized how annoying it is, and I am glad that I stopped doing it. I am very careful with my language in general and how I articulate directions, etc. and I am thankful that I have come so far in that area in the last couple of years.
Is it bad that I think I am a better music teacher than a lot of the ones in my district, as a second year teacher??? I feel like a student teacher could learn a lot from me already. I can't wait to have one some day. Now, I TOTALLY am not saying that I have everything down, and that my way is the best. I just think that because of my passion for being a great music teacher I work really hard to do a good job. My lesson plans are very thorough and efficient, and they cover ALL elements of music. I like the variety in my plans and think I understand kids interests and abilities so this helps me. I just miss being around other good teachers daily. I am very reflective and always am looking for new materials and ideas, and I just feel like many teachers take the easy way out. Where can I find other teachers that love learning how to make themselves and their students be the best they can be? Can't wait to see what happens next year.
Oh man, that was a long rant, but I knew it would be driving away from that school today.
This weekend was Erin's Bridal Shower and Bachelorette Party. The shower was boring and the party started that way, but later turned out to be an awesome night. It's like, drink drink drink not drunk yet, OOPS WASTED! I am a little embarrassed that Mom and Dad saw me drunk, although Dad was drunk soooo...awesome. I have never seen him drunk, it was awesome. Erin's friends are all young and skinny(lightweights), so not that fun for us. We didn't see many people from high school out so that was also a relief. Pat had fun with the guys, and he was also funny drunk at the end of the night. At the bacc party we all had to take a blank outline of a guy and draw our dream guy on it, and it was funny. MOM'S!!! EW, she drew a hairy guy and we were like, "DAD?" and she was like, "No, it's for Erin I thought!" Whatever, weird. Theresa's was too realistic it was creepy, mine sucked, and Shannon copied the penis on mine which was funny. Basically she had a anime guy with a big dick. Christa's guy had a funny shaped penis that looked like a barbell and Christines had a red pen so she made a guy with a red afro and huge pubes, gross. One of the ladies there drew a guy in some kind of S&M clothes which was awkward. We also played a relay game where you had to try to get a roll of toilet paper that was in between your legs onto someone else's broomstick, also between their legs. Guess you'd have to be there. Stout Ale House service sucked yet again. I think that I am going to write them a letter to complain. We had a large group so gratuity was included, but service was horrible. They forgot things, messed up orders, and one girl had a raw, pink burger. They told another girl she couldn't order a grasshopper because they were busy. Wtf? It was a Saturday night, and the capacity in that place is like 800. There could not have been more than 200 there. She was a bitch too. My nachos sucked. Anyways, it was a fun weekend. It went by way too fast and when we left home Saturday after going out, I started crying hugging Mom. Ha, I was drunk too so that didn't help.
This is a short week. We have conferences on Thursday so no classes. It should be an easy day for me. I just have to get through tomorrow, day of whatever I want, and then Friday. On Friday Bucky Badger is coming with some cheerleaders and a small group of Badger Band people. It should be fun, but I am just annoyed that all these teachers expect me to teach about the badger band. Excuse, but what is there to teach. I'll spend 10 minutes on it, but not weeks. Give me a break. I have so many other things to focus on, like a concert.
I am feeling better, as far as health, this week. I still have gunk up in hur. At times I will have an annoying and suffocating coughing fit, and feel a little stuffed up in the morning, but I am fine most of the time. That's a relief. Now, we just need to start working out way more often. We have slacked hard core, and the scale is starting to show it. geh, I like working out when I am there, and it always feels great afterwords, but dragging myself there is the problem. We only have a month until Pat and Erin's wedding so hopefully we can still make some progress. I tried my dress on this weekend and it fits really well, but it'd be nice to lose just a little bit, and go tanning too.
Ok, long post. If you made it to the end, good for you! You are a true friend, ha. Oh I like how last time the only comments I got were from Becky and Theresa. Cmon people, leave me a laugh!
Have a great night!
I had my first visitation day for school, which basically means that the arts coordinator set up a half day where I spend time watching another music teacher in the district. I observed a teacher who taught at my school 3 years ago for one year. Apparently she didn't care for Falk and I was looking forward to meeting her, thinking that we might line up more as far as teaching philosophy. Well...I would say that it was nice to talk to someone who understands Falk. We talked about how the atmosphere is more negative there. It was nice to sort out how I feel with her that way. I like my students, feel like I've developed a good relationship with them, but it is hard to teach at Falk because the general staff there allows disrespect to happen. No one expects students to take responsibility for their actions, and own their behavior. "You have to understand where they are coming from and what their home life is like" - This is what I hear a lot. I don't see how I can settle for less than appropriate behavior, and have high expectations as far as this goes. I love my students, want to advocate for them, and also want them to know that they should be more respectful and responsible so that they can feel success. I heard a student saying something to an after school staff person along the lines of, "well, my parents will whoop me if I disrespect them, but you can't because you're a teacher!" Why is this okay? I just think that we should provide a positive environment, where they are intrinsically motivated to make good choices. The consequences for poor behavior at Falk are pathetic and have no impact. Someone, principal especially, needs to re-evaluate what is going on here. It makes it harder for a teacher, that is trying to do the right thing, to be consistent and effective. I can send a kid out to the recovery room, but I WANT to deal with conflicts/poor behavior on my own because I don't agree with the way things are done in the recovery room all of the time. It's like a kid throws a fit, waits it out, calms down, writes me a quick and meaningless sorry letter, and everyone moves on. What does that really show the kids??
And to go off on what else is on my mind... I was VERY disappointed to meet this teacher today only to find out that she pretty much only teaches stuff from K-8 magazine and MusicExpress. Now, I love both magazines and have gotten a lot of fun songs out of them, mostly for holidays and filler stuff. She is getting ready for a concert, and so I was thinking that was why it seemed like all they did was listen and sing along with a CD while doing some actions. Yes, the kids were engaged and having fun, BUT they weren't really learning anything. I think a lot of music teachers think that as long as they are engaged and loving music and singing that is enough. I don't think they realize the wealth of educational and historic songs that can teach elements of music, as well as be fun for kids. I learned this to the tenth degree last year being in a district that taught mostly using the Kodaly method because it is based on folk songs. Ok, when in theory I thought it was ridiculous that Dr. Cunningham thought we would know all of these old folk songs, and now I realize the value in those songs. I like how they have a historical purpose(ie. work songs), age appropriate melodies, and you can extend them with games. I don't use only older folk songs though. I also like finding new songs, about things in our current students lives, that are still fun but have that educational value. This music teacher today was saying that she hopes she teaches them "perhaps something about music and notes, but just to create music lovers and consumers is the goal". I think you can DO BOTH easily! Well, I shouldn't say easily, but if you do the work it is much more rewarding and effective. It is also not that hard to branch out to find more educational materials. I just think of my elementary music experience, straight out of the text book, and I don't really remember anything we did. I remember a small handful of songs, and absolutely nothing about reading music, and I wouldn't say it made me some kind of music lover. I also attribute that kind of half-ass early music education that I had to the fact that I was a timid and uncomfortable singer for many years, probably up until I student taught and had to do it all the time. I saw great music education happening every single day last year and it is disappointing to be away from it. I hate that it seems like all of the music teachers in Madison are like this too. We have two kinds, textbook teachers, and magazine teachers. The only good thing I can really see about these "styles" is that there is a large opportunity to use culturally appropriate songs and history. I would just rather push myself to find ways to do that with the way I am already doing things. I compare all of this to a middle/high school band teacher who only does pop songs or just runs music/teaches by rote. You could also compare it to a driven musician being placed in a ensemble that doesn't have as high of expectations or level of musicianship and doesn't care to improve. Frustrating...
Her classroom management was not impressive. Yes, the kids liked her and weren't killing each other. They were, however, walking around like they owned the place and interrupting her left and right. All I was thinking was "Julie put me with YOU?" Each teacher has their own style of classroom management though, and some are more comfortable this type of atmosphere. I just think you can have tons of fun, connect with students, while keeping things efficient and productive. I should not have to let kids go off on other topics just so they get a chance to share. If it applies and it is a quick story, by all means then share, but we don't need to waste 5 minutes flipping a flip form over to see what is underneath "just to get our curiosity out of the way". No, they don't need to see, move on and get them interested in what you are doing. Duh. This teacher said, "ready?" like a million times a class, and I thought of when Dr. Heidel pointed out that I kept doing that. I realized how annoying it is, and I am glad that I stopped doing it. I am very careful with my language in general and how I articulate directions, etc. and I am thankful that I have come so far in that area in the last couple of years.
Is it bad that I think I am a better music teacher than a lot of the ones in my district, as a second year teacher??? I feel like a student teacher could learn a lot from me already. I can't wait to have one some day. Now, I TOTALLY am not saying that I have everything down, and that my way is the best. I just think that because of my passion for being a great music teacher I work really hard to do a good job. My lesson plans are very thorough and efficient, and they cover ALL elements of music. I like the variety in my plans and think I understand kids interests and abilities so this helps me. I just miss being around other good teachers daily. I am very reflective and always am looking for new materials and ideas, and I just feel like many teachers take the easy way out. Where can I find other teachers that love learning how to make themselves and their students be the best they can be? Can't wait to see what happens next year.
Oh man, that was a long rant, but I knew it would be driving away from that school today.
This weekend was Erin's Bridal Shower and Bachelorette Party. The shower was boring and the party started that way, but later turned out to be an awesome night. It's like, drink drink drink not drunk yet, OOPS WASTED! I am a little embarrassed that Mom and Dad saw me drunk, although Dad was drunk soooo...awesome. I have never seen him drunk, it was awesome. Erin's friends are all young and skinny(lightweights), so not that fun for us. We didn't see many people from high school out so that was also a relief. Pat had fun with the guys, and he was also funny drunk at the end of the night. At the bacc party we all had to take a blank outline of a guy and draw our dream guy on it, and it was funny. MOM'S!!! EW, she drew a hairy guy and we were like, "DAD?" and she was like, "No, it's for Erin I thought!" Whatever, weird. Theresa's was too realistic it was creepy, mine sucked, and Shannon copied the penis on mine which was funny. Basically she had a anime guy with a big dick. Christa's guy had a funny shaped penis that looked like a barbell and Christines had a red pen so she made a guy with a red afro and huge pubes, gross. One of the ladies there drew a guy in some kind of S&M clothes which was awkward. We also played a relay game where you had to try to get a roll of toilet paper that was in between your legs onto someone else's broomstick, also between their legs. Guess you'd have to be there. Stout Ale House service sucked yet again. I think that I am going to write them a letter to complain. We had a large group so gratuity was included, but service was horrible. They forgot things, messed up orders, and one girl had a raw, pink burger. They told another girl she couldn't order a grasshopper because they were busy. Wtf? It was a Saturday night, and the capacity in that place is like 800. There could not have been more than 200 there. She was a bitch too. My nachos sucked. Anyways, it was a fun weekend. It went by way too fast and when we left home Saturday after going out, I started crying hugging Mom. Ha, I was drunk too so that didn't help.
This is a short week. We have conferences on Thursday so no classes. It should be an easy day for me. I just have to get through tomorrow, day of whatever I want, and then Friday. On Friday Bucky Badger is coming with some cheerleaders and a small group of Badger Band people. It should be fun, but I am just annoyed that all these teachers expect me to teach about the badger band. Excuse, but what is there to teach. I'll spend 10 minutes on it, but not weeks. Give me a break. I have so many other things to focus on, like a concert.
I am feeling better, as far as health, this week. I still have gunk up in hur. At times I will have an annoying and suffocating coughing fit, and feel a little stuffed up in the morning, but I am fine most of the time. That's a relief. Now, we just need to start working out way more often. We have slacked hard core, and the scale is starting to show it. geh, I like working out when I am there, and it always feels great afterwords, but dragging myself there is the problem. We only have a month until Pat and Erin's wedding so hopefully we can still make some progress. I tried my dress on this weekend and it fits really well, but it'd be nice to lose just a little bit, and go tanning too.
Ok, long post. If you made it to the end, good for you! You are a true friend, ha. Oh I like how last time the only comments I got were from Becky and Theresa. Cmon people, leave me a laugh!
Have a great night!
Thursday, November 5, 2009
McDonalds :/
Theresa and I just had McDonalds for dinner and not only do I feel guilty, I feel crappy, gassy, and greasy. Eh, oh well.
Today I didn't go to school. I just felt like ass last night. This whole week was rough actually. Monday afternoon my throat hurt pretty bad and the old music teacher was subbing at Falk so I asked her to do my Tuesday afternoon. She did, and after napping and getting a good night's rest I felt like I could get through Wednesday. We had professional development in the morning and I didn't want to miss it. Theresa subbed for me that morning while I was in the meeting and then I got back to my room and did two kindergarten classes, realizing I actually didn't feel fine anymore. It is so freakin hot in my room and dry, so I think that makes everything worse. So, I went and talked to Ann who was there again and she said she'd prefer not to sub today for me. That was fine and Jeff(a 38 year old SEA who goes out every night) was trying to get us to go out to this bar after school for trivia night. After lunch I tried teaching my first of four straight 2/3 classes and realized I had no energy and had a huge headache. We watched movies and I just sat there. I thought going out afterward might get rid of my headache. We met up with Jeff and his other alcoholic friends, and it was alright. There was an awkward situation with this Asian friend of his...We are glad we went out, to break the ice and stuff. But we basically got way too tipsy and realized it was working on our headaches and left around 7:30. It was one of the worst headaches I have had, I felt really nauseous and could NOT think. So I tried calling in to the sub thing because I couldn't plan for myself, or for a music sub if I wanted to. The thing was being stupid and I ended up having to call my secretary at home. Anyways, she set it up, I had some random sub today who just watched movies I guess. I woke up feeling much better, but I still feel tired and exhausted. I wouldn't be surprised if I had mono or something. It's like when I am sitting I feel fine and it makes me feel guilty for not going to school, and at the same time both times I tried to teach my classes as a regularly do I was way way way exhausted. Anyways, I just hope I can make it through tomorrow which the mindset that it is Friday. Mary Neff is observing my kindergarten classes tomorrow because she has to observe children that are different from her, aka black. I also have a meeting with my principal in the afternoon regarding the 4/5 concert in December. I planned all the music for the concert, and have worked out a ton of details. Hopefully when we meet I can smooth out the rest, and just work on getting the kids ready from here on out. I feel like this concert is a huge opportunity to "prove" myself, for lack of a better word, to the other teachers and parents. I know many kids like me, but 4/5's have been my hardest classes this year. They are bigger, way behind, and have challenging personalities. Apparently there is a big problem with student/parent turn out at concerts so I am having an after school pizza party and movies to keep kids there. I really hope it helps.
Anyways, Theresa and I watched Lion King the other night. What a great movie. Oh man. I think we need to watch Pocahontas next. OH, Community is on, I like that show a lot.
This weekend we are going to Menomonie for Erin's(future SIL) Bridal Shower and Bachelorette Party. It's a Christmas theme, kind of lame but hopefully it will be a good time. I am just looking forward to spending some time at home, hopefully with Mom and Dad. We'll probably leave around 4 tomorrow, stop at Ho Chunk as we have made a tradition out of playing a few dollars on the penny slots, and then go to EC for the night. Saturday is home, and Sunday hopefully. I also hope I can see Morgan again, she's getting so big!
Next week is pretty random too. I have a visitation day with another music teacher in the district, who also spent one year at Falk(and didn't like it....hmmmm). That will be nice to get another perspective on this district and elementary music in general. Wednesday is a new music teacher meeting at the district office. I have no clue what that will be like, but maybe I will get to know the other new teachers better. Thursday we don't have school for conferences. Hopefully no big momma comes to yell at me for anything. I have to think of something interesting for conferences so I actually get parents down to the music room. Suggestions??? Ugh, today my report card write up was due to the secretary and I forgot since I was gone, but I am sure she understands. We don't do specials grade for 1st quarter, which is dumb in a way, so I just have to write up what we have done per grade. I hate that I don't know what it should include or look like. I don't want to over do it and have everyone think I am a loser, but I don't want to be so vague that parents think we haven't done anything.
Alright, well I guess I'll stop the blog now. Just writing pointless thoughts anyways.
Leave me a funny comment, a good laugh would be much appreciated, like "Has this screen always been like a bite outta crime?" or whatever becky said about their window.
Today I didn't go to school. I just felt like ass last night. This whole week was rough actually. Monday afternoon my throat hurt pretty bad and the old music teacher was subbing at Falk so I asked her to do my Tuesday afternoon. She did, and after napping and getting a good night's rest I felt like I could get through Wednesday. We had professional development in the morning and I didn't want to miss it. Theresa subbed for me that morning while I was in the meeting and then I got back to my room and did two kindergarten classes, realizing I actually didn't feel fine anymore. It is so freakin hot in my room and dry, so I think that makes everything worse. So, I went and talked to Ann who was there again and she said she'd prefer not to sub today for me. That was fine and Jeff(a 38 year old SEA who goes out every night) was trying to get us to go out to this bar after school for trivia night. After lunch I tried teaching my first of four straight 2/3 classes and realized I had no energy and had a huge headache. We watched movies and I just sat there. I thought going out afterward might get rid of my headache. We met up with Jeff and his other alcoholic friends, and it was alright. There was an awkward situation with this Asian friend of his...We are glad we went out, to break the ice and stuff. But we basically got way too tipsy and realized it was working on our headaches and left around 7:30. It was one of the worst headaches I have had, I felt really nauseous and could NOT think. So I tried calling in to the sub thing because I couldn't plan for myself, or for a music sub if I wanted to. The thing was being stupid and I ended up having to call my secretary at home. Anyways, she set it up, I had some random sub today who just watched movies I guess. I woke up feeling much better, but I still feel tired and exhausted. I wouldn't be surprised if I had mono or something. It's like when I am sitting I feel fine and it makes me feel guilty for not going to school, and at the same time both times I tried to teach my classes as a regularly do I was way way way exhausted. Anyways, I just hope I can make it through tomorrow which the mindset that it is Friday. Mary Neff is observing my kindergarten classes tomorrow because she has to observe children that are different from her, aka black. I also have a meeting with my principal in the afternoon regarding the 4/5 concert in December. I planned all the music for the concert, and have worked out a ton of details. Hopefully when we meet I can smooth out the rest, and just work on getting the kids ready from here on out. I feel like this concert is a huge opportunity to "prove" myself, for lack of a better word, to the other teachers and parents. I know many kids like me, but 4/5's have been my hardest classes this year. They are bigger, way behind, and have challenging personalities. Apparently there is a big problem with student/parent turn out at concerts so I am having an after school pizza party and movies to keep kids there. I really hope it helps.
Anyways, Theresa and I watched Lion King the other night. What a great movie. Oh man. I think we need to watch Pocahontas next. OH, Community is on, I like that show a lot.
This weekend we are going to Menomonie for Erin's(future SIL) Bridal Shower and Bachelorette Party. It's a Christmas theme, kind of lame but hopefully it will be a good time. I am just looking forward to spending some time at home, hopefully with Mom and Dad. We'll probably leave around 4 tomorrow, stop at Ho Chunk as we have made a tradition out of playing a few dollars on the penny slots, and then go to EC for the night. Saturday is home, and Sunday hopefully. I also hope I can see Morgan again, she's getting so big!
Next week is pretty random too. I have a visitation day with another music teacher in the district, who also spent one year at Falk(and didn't like it....hmmmm). That will be nice to get another perspective on this district and elementary music in general. Wednesday is a new music teacher meeting at the district office. I have no clue what that will be like, but maybe I will get to know the other new teachers better. Thursday we don't have school for conferences. Hopefully no big momma comes to yell at me for anything. I have to think of something interesting for conferences so I actually get parents down to the music room. Suggestions??? Ugh, today my report card write up was due to the secretary and I forgot since I was gone, but I am sure she understands. We don't do specials grade for 1st quarter, which is dumb in a way, so I just have to write up what we have done per grade. I hate that I don't know what it should include or look like. I don't want to over do it and have everyone think I am a loser, but I don't want to be so vague that parents think we haven't done anything.
Alright, well I guess I'll stop the blog now. Just writing pointless thoughts anyways.
Leave me a funny comment, a good laugh would be much appreciated, like "Has this screen always been like a bite outta crime?" or whatever becky said about their window.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
November already!
Well, lots to update? I guess so anyways...
Convention was alright, not really worth all the money but thankfully we live in town so that helps. I am glad I experienced it finally too. I got a few really great ideas for school. I really liked watching the guy who taught the sessions on Middle Eastern and African American music. I mean, it always seems like it is harder for me to catch on to learning songs in a different language and everyone else seems to get it after one run through. I always felt that way after Orff and Kodaly workshops last year too. He was really good though, and I am always in awe of good teachers, and just picture what their classes must be like. I think my favorite session was the one on improvisation in the elementary music class. I guess it is one of those things I had the least experience with, as far as the elements go. I also liked realizing that some of the things I already do, with vocal exploration for example, really are a form of improvisation. With kids it is all about basic stuff, so it's not like improvising with a jazz band. They can just make up a 4 beat response to nonsense words/syllables. Anyways, rant.
We all went to Essenhaus Thursday night. By all, I mean Ashley, Lauren, Theresa, Rick, Justina, her bf, and me. It was unexpectedly fun. We drank too much I am sure, and made asses of ourselves. BUT I enjoyed Rick so much that night, holy hilarious. It was a fun place, not too cheap but worth the experience. I'd consider going there again if we ever have more visitors.
Halloween - I had some really fun times and I was also disappointed a bunch. State street is way too crazy. It was fun to see the funny costumes. We had a lot of fun getting ready and before we left for State St. Then it was just too crowded and we had to wait forever to get a drink, get into a bar, or go to the bathroom so I was more or less sober when we got back to the apartment. Then me and Becky and Theresa and Rick slept in my room/closet and at least ended the night laughing at stupid shit. Again, Rick was a blast.
The next morning we went to Perkins and I didn't realize Errin and her friends were leaving straight from there, or I wouldn't have left after I paid my bill. Truth is, I was just really emotional(yet again) and felt sad that Yakob wouldn't just meet us for 5 minutes. I just miss MY friends, and I don't have many. I was bummed that Joe and Stephanie couldn't make it, Errin brought friends and was off with them, and Yakob stood me up. It was just disappointing because I have felt so sad, lonely, and depressed lately. I wanted it to be a good time.
Wednesday night as everyone was starting to get in, I got a call from Dennis. We talked for about 1hr and I kept trying to get off the phone because we had people arriving and stuff. He just kept talking, and we clearly have so much to catch up on so I told him to call me again. SO, he called 15 minutes later and we talked a bit more. It was just...weird? I mean, I love talking to Dennis. He's a great guy, and we've always been able to talk easily. Since I've been so lonely it was nice to talk to someone I felt really knew me, but at the same time disappointing because I feel like he is going off getting married and settling for a half-ass relationship. I've always felt that way about them, and it could be the circumstances that we broke up and he started dating her right away. They've been together more or less ever since, but I do know that she cheated on him a few years ago and they broke up for a bit. I feel like he took her back because of comfort or something. I just never think cheating is okay, ever. Everyone has their experiences and their beliefs but I just don't know how it gets that far. Anyways, who knows I told him I'd love to talk more often, but it'll probably be another few months. I don't want to call him and have Kristin get pissed. Geh.
Justina met her boyfriend, who was awesome btw, on match.com. Maybe I should go on there, cripes. I miss being close to someone and want to move on with my life, but it just doesn't feel right anyways. I know that might just be because I haven't met anyone lately who I would ever be interested in. I don't know, I have just been flat out depressed. I feel like crying all the time, and lately I have been. I just don't know if I am that depressed or if my hormones are messed up or what. I just feel alone, and like no one cares about me, and like I've lost anything good in my life.
Job is still okay, but I am consistently disappointed in that no other staff care to make me feel welcome, besides the librarian and art teacher. I am getting all of my things together for my 4th/5th grade concert in December. I hope I pull it off alright. I left school after lunch today because I was feeling kind of sick last night and asked the retired music teacher if she'd be interested in subbing for me if I didn't feel better. She could only do the afternoon so I guess that's what I asked her to do. I could have stayed all day, but let's face it I needed a mental health afternoon. I would take tomorrow off for more mental health, but we have staff development and knowing my luck my sickness would kick into full force in a few days when I need to actually be gone.
I just don't think I can describe how I feel lately. Not to be a downer, but I thought it would pass. I find myself so sensitive, emotional, and drained. I feel like Josh is completely shutting me out of his life. If that's what he wants, whatever. I am just disappointed because I thought we could be friends. This is what I did to him at points this summer, but I was mad and dealing with a fresh wound. Now, I just wonder if he is flat over it all, or mad at me, or in love with another person or what. I just feel like a major retard trying to talk to him, because it feels one-sided and like he is so uninterested in my life, along with everyone else. So the death of our regular friendship has been hard on me. It will never be normal again.
I just don't know. I JUST DON'T KNOW! Please don't comment, I only find it awkward. (although I appreciated MOST of the other comments on my last post on friends).
Convention was alright, not really worth all the money but thankfully we live in town so that helps. I am glad I experienced it finally too. I got a few really great ideas for school. I really liked watching the guy who taught the sessions on Middle Eastern and African American music. I mean, it always seems like it is harder for me to catch on to learning songs in a different language and everyone else seems to get it after one run through. I always felt that way after Orff and Kodaly workshops last year too. He was really good though, and I am always in awe of good teachers, and just picture what their classes must be like. I think my favorite session was the one on improvisation in the elementary music class. I guess it is one of those things I had the least experience with, as far as the elements go. I also liked realizing that some of the things I already do, with vocal exploration for example, really are a form of improvisation. With kids it is all about basic stuff, so it's not like improvising with a jazz band. They can just make up a 4 beat response to nonsense words/syllables. Anyways, rant.
We all went to Essenhaus Thursday night. By all, I mean Ashley, Lauren, Theresa, Rick, Justina, her bf, and me. It was unexpectedly fun. We drank too much I am sure, and made asses of ourselves. BUT I enjoyed Rick so much that night, holy hilarious. It was a fun place, not too cheap but worth the experience. I'd consider going there again if we ever have more visitors.
Halloween - I had some really fun times and I was also disappointed a bunch. State street is way too crazy. It was fun to see the funny costumes. We had a lot of fun getting ready and before we left for State St. Then it was just too crowded and we had to wait forever to get a drink, get into a bar, or go to the bathroom so I was more or less sober when we got back to the apartment. Then me and Becky and Theresa and Rick slept in my room/closet and at least ended the night laughing at stupid shit. Again, Rick was a blast.
The next morning we went to Perkins and I didn't realize Errin and her friends were leaving straight from there, or I wouldn't have left after I paid my bill. Truth is, I was just really emotional(yet again) and felt sad that Yakob wouldn't just meet us for 5 minutes. I just miss MY friends, and I don't have many. I was bummed that Joe and Stephanie couldn't make it, Errin brought friends and was off with them, and Yakob stood me up. It was just disappointing because I have felt so sad, lonely, and depressed lately. I wanted it to be a good time.
Wednesday night as everyone was starting to get in, I got a call from Dennis. We talked for about 1hr and I kept trying to get off the phone because we had people arriving and stuff. He just kept talking, and we clearly have so much to catch up on so I told him to call me again. SO, he called 15 minutes later and we talked a bit more. It was just...weird? I mean, I love talking to Dennis. He's a great guy, and we've always been able to talk easily. Since I've been so lonely it was nice to talk to someone I felt really knew me, but at the same time disappointing because I feel like he is going off getting married and settling for a half-ass relationship. I've always felt that way about them, and it could be the circumstances that we broke up and he started dating her right away. They've been together more or less ever since, but I do know that she cheated on him a few years ago and they broke up for a bit. I feel like he took her back because of comfort or something. I just never think cheating is okay, ever. Everyone has their experiences and their beliefs but I just don't know how it gets that far. Anyways, who knows I told him I'd love to talk more often, but it'll probably be another few months. I don't want to call him and have Kristin get pissed. Geh.
Justina met her boyfriend, who was awesome btw, on match.com. Maybe I should go on there, cripes. I miss being close to someone and want to move on with my life, but it just doesn't feel right anyways. I know that might just be because I haven't met anyone lately who I would ever be interested in. I don't know, I have just been flat out depressed. I feel like crying all the time, and lately I have been. I just don't know if I am that depressed or if my hormones are messed up or what. I just feel alone, and like no one cares about me, and like I've lost anything good in my life.
Job is still okay, but I am consistently disappointed in that no other staff care to make me feel welcome, besides the librarian and art teacher. I am getting all of my things together for my 4th/5th grade concert in December. I hope I pull it off alright. I left school after lunch today because I was feeling kind of sick last night and asked the retired music teacher if she'd be interested in subbing for me if I didn't feel better. She could only do the afternoon so I guess that's what I asked her to do. I could have stayed all day, but let's face it I needed a mental health afternoon. I would take tomorrow off for more mental health, but we have staff development and knowing my luck my sickness would kick into full force in a few days when I need to actually be gone.
I just don't think I can describe how I feel lately. Not to be a downer, but I thought it would pass. I find myself so sensitive, emotional, and drained. I feel like Josh is completely shutting me out of his life. If that's what he wants, whatever. I am just disappointed because I thought we could be friends. This is what I did to him at points this summer, but I was mad and dealing with a fresh wound. Now, I just wonder if he is flat over it all, or mad at me, or in love with another person or what. I just feel like a major retard trying to talk to him, because it feels one-sided and like he is so uninterested in my life, along with everyone else. So the death of our regular friendship has been hard on me. It will never be normal again.
I just don't know. I JUST DON'T KNOW! Please don't comment, I only find it awkward. (although I appreciated MOST of the other comments on my last post on friends).
Thursday, October 22, 2009
blah
Here I sit, another week has gone by. I haven't wanted to blog lately, perhaps it's too much work, and also I just don't know how much of my feelings I can really articulate, let alone in a public blog. I guess I will try because it might make me feel better...
so...where to start...Homecoming. It was alright. It always feels good to get out and do something different, and see different people, etc. I found myself just feeling depressed after the weekend though. I mean, not like cut yourself and want to commit suicide, but I just feel lost. I do not have any friends. I know a lot of people, and I am surface friends with them, but really no one that I was dying to see. The subject of friends is a touchy subject with me currently. On one hand, I want friends because I want to talk to people, laugh, and all that. At the same time, everyone annoys me here(besides Theresa) and I feel like my opportunity to be close friends with many people in EC has passed. It can be really hard now that I realize how much Josh and I shared and talked. In no way am I saying I regret my decision, but it does suck to lose a friend. Even though we are "friends" it will never be the same. Most of the people I know from EC were more friends with Becky and mostly Theresa(social butterfly). Unfortunately, I have been getting way down on myself lately because I feel like this is all my fault for being a "homebody" and a bit of a bitch? I don't know. I guess I just never saw the value of being fake with people and pretending to care about stupid shit just to fit in. Maybe that costed me some friends. I also was always stretched thin as far as being busy, and lord knows I love my "me time", even if it is just sitting around being lazy. If I was not down here with Theresa I have no clue how I would be surviving. And the worst thing is when everyone tries to tell me that it's some adjustment and all just relating to change. I've gone through changes, I have been in new places with new people, and I have always been fine. I am also not saying that it has nothing to do with it, but I just don't want to hear the generic shit I guess.
It's really been bugging me, also, that my family seems to not even care if I exist. All drama aside, I really do wonder if my parents ever think about me. It is how I honestly feel to say that I know they assume since I am with Theresa that I am fine. I love a big family, but fuck I just want some attention sometimes. I know that they love me and care about me so much. I just wish they knew how to make the time to show it. BUT then I wonder, do I make the time to show THEM?...I just don't know. I have only talked to my parents 4 times since August 29th and each time it's for a few minutes it feels like. I know I could talk more if I made the effort to call them, but it just feels like I am bothering them. I cannot stand when I am talking to Mom and she is having side conversations with my little siblings. "Oh Scott, can you pick that up?" That type of shit. I know she hates that it happens sometimes too, but I just don't understand why she won't email me, or call me when she has a chance, even late at night. At the same time, I have nothing to say to my parents really. I could talk and talk and talk about my job, but I've learned that no one wants to hear it. Well, I shouldn't say it that way, but I also know that there are so many things going through my head regarding school that I don't know where to begin and so I tend to just not talk about it. It's weird that Theresa talks more about her subbing jobs than I talk about my job. The weekend before homecoming we were home and not 5 minutes after we walked in the door, mom and dad went to Eau Claire for the day to get shit for the cabin. That's all they care about, I swear. It just felt like a slap in the face. We tried to just use it as an opportunity to spend time with the little kids, but it would be nice to feel a connection to my own parents again. See? I shouldn't have even tried to write about this heavy stuff. It's making me sound like a melodramatic baby. So I will continue!
My job is not horrible, I repeat, not horrible. I don't want people to think I hate Falk. I really like having a job, I enjoy working with these kids. While there are behavior problems, I still feel a strong desire to be an advocate for each student, and help them be successful in school and out. If I leave next year, I really would miss these kids too. It's more that I feel like the school is not as fulfilling. The teachers don't collaborate enough, pretend things are great when they are not, and they just settle for what they think is enough. I am just so opposite of that mindset that it drives me crazy. I want to get things done, come up with new ideas, make the best of every situation, and all of the typical stuff. I just don't relate to any of the staff there well at this point. I have a people I talk to, and they are very very nice, but I can't say I think that they "get" me. I WISH I WAS IN OWATONNA. I was just in the ideal place for me, only to not be able to be back there. I am learning a lot here, and it will make me a better teacher. I just try to challenge myself, recognize my hard work, and do the very best I can for my kids. It's fricken exhausting. I am really bonding with some kids. I am also getting into sorting through the room, and making it my own.
Alright, enough bitching. This morning I kind of strained a muscle or something. The middle of my back, kind of where my bar is, is just really sore and tight. I made it through the day, but it got progressively worse. I laid down with my heating pad and took some IBprofen after school. I think it feels a little better. We are now watching Wheel of Fortune, having a typical Soules sister night. I have a little stuff to do for school, but I think we will be watching Edward scissorhands later.
I think I am going to go to the dentist for a cleaning, and ask them about my wisdom teeth again. I mean, I keep biting my cheek in the back and it's getting ridiculous. My dentist in Lakeville had a theory that if he pulled them out my cheeks would just adjust and more or less sink into the next teeth anyways, meaning I'd still bite them. At the time it made sense, and I didn't want to have to pay to remove them. Now, it seems a little silly and I would set up a payment plan if I could stop biting my teeth. PLUS, I think I bite my tongue/cheek in my sleep and clench my jaw. I don't know. I really don't think I could sleep with a mouthguard though. I know Chelsea sleeps with one, but knowing me and my clausterphobia I think it would be bad.
Ok, long story short, I am feeling like empty and lonely and crappy lately, but I do not want advice or fake put-ups. Thanks "friends".
so...where to start...Homecoming. It was alright. It always feels good to get out and do something different, and see different people, etc. I found myself just feeling depressed after the weekend though. I mean, not like cut yourself and want to commit suicide, but I just feel lost. I do not have any friends. I know a lot of people, and I am surface friends with them, but really no one that I was dying to see. The subject of friends is a touchy subject with me currently. On one hand, I want friends because I want to talk to people, laugh, and all that. At the same time, everyone annoys me here(besides Theresa) and I feel like my opportunity to be close friends with many people in EC has passed. It can be really hard now that I realize how much Josh and I shared and talked. In no way am I saying I regret my decision, but it does suck to lose a friend. Even though we are "friends" it will never be the same. Most of the people I know from EC were more friends with Becky and mostly Theresa(social butterfly). Unfortunately, I have been getting way down on myself lately because I feel like this is all my fault for being a "homebody" and a bit of a bitch? I don't know. I guess I just never saw the value of being fake with people and pretending to care about stupid shit just to fit in. Maybe that costed me some friends. I also was always stretched thin as far as being busy, and lord knows I love my "me time", even if it is just sitting around being lazy. If I was not down here with Theresa I have no clue how I would be surviving. And the worst thing is when everyone tries to tell me that it's some adjustment and all just relating to change. I've gone through changes, I have been in new places with new people, and I have always been fine. I am also not saying that it has nothing to do with it, but I just don't want to hear the generic shit I guess.
It's really been bugging me, also, that my family seems to not even care if I exist. All drama aside, I really do wonder if my parents ever think about me. It is how I honestly feel to say that I know they assume since I am with Theresa that I am fine. I love a big family, but fuck I just want some attention sometimes. I know that they love me and care about me so much. I just wish they knew how to make the time to show it. BUT then I wonder, do I make the time to show THEM?...I just don't know. I have only talked to my parents 4 times since August 29th and each time it's for a few minutes it feels like. I know I could talk more if I made the effort to call them, but it just feels like I am bothering them. I cannot stand when I am talking to Mom and she is having side conversations with my little siblings. "Oh Scott, can you pick that up?" That type of shit. I know she hates that it happens sometimes too, but I just don't understand why she won't email me, or call me when she has a chance, even late at night. At the same time, I have nothing to say to my parents really. I could talk and talk and talk about my job, but I've learned that no one wants to hear it. Well, I shouldn't say it that way, but I also know that there are so many things going through my head regarding school that I don't know where to begin and so I tend to just not talk about it. It's weird that Theresa talks more about her subbing jobs than I talk about my job. The weekend before homecoming we were home and not 5 minutes after we walked in the door, mom and dad went to Eau Claire for the day to get shit for the cabin. That's all they care about, I swear. It just felt like a slap in the face. We tried to just use it as an opportunity to spend time with the little kids, but it would be nice to feel a connection to my own parents again. See? I shouldn't have even tried to write about this heavy stuff. It's making me sound like a melodramatic baby. So I will continue!
My job is not horrible, I repeat, not horrible. I don't want people to think I hate Falk. I really like having a job, I enjoy working with these kids. While there are behavior problems, I still feel a strong desire to be an advocate for each student, and help them be successful in school and out. If I leave next year, I really would miss these kids too. It's more that I feel like the school is not as fulfilling. The teachers don't collaborate enough, pretend things are great when they are not, and they just settle for what they think is enough. I am just so opposite of that mindset that it drives me crazy. I want to get things done, come up with new ideas, make the best of every situation, and all of the typical stuff. I just don't relate to any of the staff there well at this point. I have a people I talk to, and they are very very nice, but I can't say I think that they "get" me. I WISH I WAS IN OWATONNA. I was just in the ideal place for me, only to not be able to be back there. I am learning a lot here, and it will make me a better teacher. I just try to challenge myself, recognize my hard work, and do the very best I can for my kids. It's fricken exhausting. I am really bonding with some kids. I am also getting into sorting through the room, and making it my own.
Alright, enough bitching. This morning I kind of strained a muscle or something. The middle of my back, kind of where my bar is, is just really sore and tight. I made it through the day, but it got progressively worse. I laid down with my heating pad and took some IBprofen after school. I think it feels a little better. We are now watching Wheel of Fortune, having a typical Soules sister night. I have a little stuff to do for school, but I think we will be watching Edward scissorhands later.
I think I am going to go to the dentist for a cleaning, and ask them about my wisdom teeth again. I mean, I keep biting my cheek in the back and it's getting ridiculous. My dentist in Lakeville had a theory that if he pulled them out my cheeks would just adjust and more or less sink into the next teeth anyways, meaning I'd still bite them. At the time it made sense, and I didn't want to have to pay to remove them. Now, it seems a little silly and I would set up a payment plan if I could stop biting my teeth. PLUS, I think I bite my tongue/cheek in my sleep and clench my jaw. I don't know. I really don't think I could sleep with a mouthguard though. I know Chelsea sleeps with one, but knowing me and my clausterphobia I think it would be bad.
Ok, long story short, I am feeling like empty and lonely and crappy lately, but I do not want advice or fake put-ups. Thanks "friends".
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Getting things done...
I am feeling pretty good lately about getting some things done that I have really put off. I mean, I guess I shouldn't feel so good since I should have done them before and I have not been working out like I should either, but I am going to still be happy.
Last night I did a couple loads of laundry and spent the whole night doing things for school, and NOT lesson plans. I figured out what I am roughly doing the rest of the month and in November, made some leeway on my 4/5 grade concert in December, and went through many music catalogues trying to figure out how to spend my budget. I turned in a few orders today, and still need to finish up a few more that involve websites instead of teacher catalogues. I don't have a ton to spend so I am trying to be smart. I am also trying to really buy things that can go a long way, but enable me to do a lot of the cool things I was able to do in Owatonna. I think I might seriously invest in an ipod for school. Still don't know, it'd be SO nice to not switch out CDs and keep track of what song is what number on what CD in what CD space of the stereo. Ugh, I know.
Tonight I am going to continue my budget stuff, and clean the bathroom and vacuum the apartment. It needs it. I am also going to pack for the weekend and figure out what all I have to do before we leave for EC. I am sort of excited to go to homecoming, but I'd be lying if I said I think it's going to earth shattering. I am just hoping to get away, have more than a few laughs, and not feel like I am unprepared for the weekend. I also hope that I feel refreshed after this weekend, rather than a huge yearning to stay there or Menomonie for a few more days. Sunday we are going to Menomonie to see Angie from HS's baby. She's over 10months old, and I've never seen her. I am also going to pick up a coat rack that Dad made for my room so that the kindergarteners can hang up their coats they bring to music before lunch. Right now they are throwing them into a pile and then we spend way too long at the end of class digging for coats and fighting for crap like that.
I really like the secretaries at my school. It's not like we have some personal bond, it's more like they are so nice, and get their shit done AND FAST. They do a really good job, and especially Cindy is so organized. I love it. I can't wait to organize my room, side note I guess.
I love October because teaching Halloween songs for music class is so fun. There are SO MANY cool Halloween songs and activities. I don't just sing the songs that have Halloween words, but I have good educational stuff that I can pull out rhythms/pitches we are working on, do pitch matching, and incorporate literacy stuff too. Rattlin' Bones here we come. Plus, I heard that you can read Where the Wild Things Are while playing In the Hall of the Mountain King so I might just try that out since the movie is out tomorrow. Wouldn't that be fun? I am a nerd.
Well, time to get back to being productive. That seems to be the theme of most blogs I read of other people's. Oh well. See you on the flip side of homecoming blogisphere.
Last night I did a couple loads of laundry and spent the whole night doing things for school, and NOT lesson plans. I figured out what I am roughly doing the rest of the month and in November, made some leeway on my 4/5 grade concert in December, and went through many music catalogues trying to figure out how to spend my budget. I turned in a few orders today, and still need to finish up a few more that involve websites instead of teacher catalogues. I don't have a ton to spend so I am trying to be smart. I am also trying to really buy things that can go a long way, but enable me to do a lot of the cool things I was able to do in Owatonna. I think I might seriously invest in an ipod for school. Still don't know, it'd be SO nice to not switch out CDs and keep track of what song is what number on what CD in what CD space of the stereo. Ugh, I know.
Tonight I am going to continue my budget stuff, and clean the bathroom and vacuum the apartment. It needs it. I am also going to pack for the weekend and figure out what all I have to do before we leave for EC. I am sort of excited to go to homecoming, but I'd be lying if I said I think it's going to earth shattering. I am just hoping to get away, have more than a few laughs, and not feel like I am unprepared for the weekend. I also hope that I feel refreshed after this weekend, rather than a huge yearning to stay there or Menomonie for a few more days. Sunday we are going to Menomonie to see Angie from HS's baby. She's over 10months old, and I've never seen her. I am also going to pick up a coat rack that Dad made for my room so that the kindergarteners can hang up their coats they bring to music before lunch. Right now they are throwing them into a pile and then we spend way too long at the end of class digging for coats and fighting for crap like that.
I really like the secretaries at my school. It's not like we have some personal bond, it's more like they are so nice, and get their shit done AND FAST. They do a really good job, and especially Cindy is so organized. I love it. I can't wait to organize my room, side note I guess.
I love October because teaching Halloween songs for music class is so fun. There are SO MANY cool Halloween songs and activities. I don't just sing the songs that have Halloween words, but I have good educational stuff that I can pull out rhythms/pitches we are working on, do pitch matching, and incorporate literacy stuff too. Rattlin' Bones here we come. Plus, I heard that you can read Where the Wild Things Are while playing In the Hall of the Mountain King so I might just try that out since the movie is out tomorrow. Wouldn't that be fun? I am a nerd.
Well, time to get back to being productive. That seems to be the theme of most blogs I read of other people's. Oh well. See you on the flip side of homecoming blogisphere.
Friday, October 9, 2009
6 weeks done!
I have completed 6 weeks of school, and I can't believe it's already Oct. 9th. How bizarre! This week was maybe one of the "best" weeks that I have had so far. Really, I just haven't had the behavior issues I had before. There are still issues, don't get me wrong, but they are not as often. I only had to call the recovery room once this week, and that was because this girl came over on a rampage after phy ed and when I tried to call the recovery room she kept pressing buttons on the phone. I had to send a kid down to get her teacher because there was no one in the recovery room, and I had to hold her and she started stomping on my feet and kicking my shins. I am just glad that she didn't really hurt me because she's small. It seems like kids at school are really emotional lately. It sounds like they all have so much going on at home. These kids hate when people say things about their mom too(ie. YOUR MOM...!) I have had many students argue or physically start to fight over comment about their mom. Anyways, sorry so much about school, yet again.
I have been saving pictures from online to print for our frames and albums in the apartment. We have really old pictures/store model pictures in our frames. I realized how little pictures there are that are the long way. It will be nice to get that done next week, complete the love nest a little more. We also bought a britta water filter for our kitchen sink. AWESOME! Now our water doesn't taste like chlorine. I'll probably become much more hydrated as a result of this.
I got my hair cut a week ago and the stupid lady butchered my bangs. She cut them REALLY short(we're talking like 1/2 inch above the tops of my eyebrows) and they are CROOKED! I was so embarrassed, but of course I didn't have the balls to complain. Plus, I couldn't see without my glasses on and I hate when they are standing there and want you to check it out. it's awkward. So, I have been pinning them back, which basically means that I have to wear my hair in a ponytail. I just don't like doing that every day. I'll "pull myself together", and have a friggin pony tail pulled straight back. So, today I decided they were for a week, studies say 1/8 inch in that time so I was like screw it, and wore them down. I felt self conscious all day, but hopefully I didn't make a total ass of myself. I just have to act surprised all day and raise my eyebrows, haha.
I am watching Rachel Ray right now. I have only seen it a couple of times, but the meatballs with cheese sauce that she made looks amazing. I am waiting for Theresa to get home from subbing. It's so strange to have her be "working" when I am the one at home waiting. I get done early on Fridays so that is why I got home around 1pm today. I am going to try to do some Monday plans now though so I can enjoy the weekend. EC/Menomonie - Here I come!
Please write more everyone, AHEM YAKKO.
I have been saving pictures from online to print for our frames and albums in the apartment. We have really old pictures/store model pictures in our frames. I realized how little pictures there are that are the long way. It will be nice to get that done next week, complete the love nest a little more. We also bought a britta water filter for our kitchen sink. AWESOME! Now our water doesn't taste like chlorine. I'll probably become much more hydrated as a result of this.
I got my hair cut a week ago and the stupid lady butchered my bangs. She cut them REALLY short(we're talking like 1/2 inch above the tops of my eyebrows) and they are CROOKED! I was so embarrassed, but of course I didn't have the balls to complain. Plus, I couldn't see without my glasses on and I hate when they are standing there and want you to check it out. it's awkward. So, I have been pinning them back, which basically means that I have to wear my hair in a ponytail. I just don't like doing that every day. I'll "pull myself together", and have a friggin pony tail pulled straight back. So, today I decided they were for a week, studies say 1/8 inch in that time so I was like screw it, and wore them down. I felt self conscious all day, but hopefully I didn't make a total ass of myself. I just have to act surprised all day and raise my eyebrows, haha.
I am watching Rachel Ray right now. I have only seen it a couple of times, but the meatballs with cheese sauce that she made looks amazing. I am waiting for Theresa to get home from subbing. It's so strange to have her be "working" when I am the one at home waiting. I get done early on Fridays so that is why I got home around 1pm today. I am going to try to do some Monday plans now though so I can enjoy the weekend. EC/Menomonie - Here I come!
Please write more everyone, AHEM YAKKO.
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