I am typing on Theresa's keyboard that doesn't have a normal space bar, just a little nub to hit. It's annoying but oh well. I haven't gotten mine set up here yet. I am unpacking all of my stuff in EC today for the summer. Then I need to pack for the week, I am staying with teacher friends in Owatonna for the last week and day. It will be interesting for sure. I just want to feel like I know where things are and have easy access to everyday things again.

Yesterday it was very nice to spend the day with Mom while we moved my stuff out of Lakeville. We had a very nice conversation over lunch and I just love my mom/family more than anything in the world. They may not be perfect, but they are awesome and I wouldn't want them any other way.

I hope maybe I can see Morgan again soon.

There we are, me and Morgan(and Laura). She is so cute and tiny. I can't believe it. I mean, you see pictures but then in person you really get the full idea of how small infants are! AND, you can see my new hairs. I think being an aunt is going to be awesome, and I can't wait to spoil Morgan. Her nursery is adorable by the way, the kind of jungle theme. I've always pictured myself going with a cute jungle theme when I have babies. In many ways I am so pumped to be a mom someday, hell I think I'll even enjoy most of the pregnancy, but when I was holding Morgan tonight I couldn't help but think how crazy it would be to be totally responsible for this little person. It's crazy. I'm sure there's more to come about Morgan so for now I will stop.

I am just chillin in Menomonie tonight. Tomorrow morning Mom and I are getting the rest of my stuff in Lakeville and putting it all in Eau Claire. I think Tsa and I will have a fun summer together in that old apartment. I'm sure we'll all three be together either at one place or another actually. I can't wait to be tan, and to go tubing.

Josh and I have yet to here back from our landlord on whether or not they are charging us for June rent or not. Long story but basically we turned our 60 day notice in on 60 days only to find out it also had to be on the last day of the month. We were two days late, misunderstanding, landlord sucks and is never there or organized. We were supposed to hear yesterday, apparently now we'll find out after we're both totally gone anyways. Whatev.

Haha, Laura is playing and talking to herself. She just asked me to write "Danger is bad" on a piece of paper for her to copy. It's hilarous to listen to her, she tries to talk like a teacher. But what the??? Why is she awake, it's 10:30pm. I suppose she's stayed up much later. Just because I am up later than my bedtime, and can hardly function, doesn't mean she can't.

Goodnight Moon...

Isn't that great...

Thank you to the Bruce music teacher that is keeping the stereotype of pervert band directors alive and kickin'. Douche.

I'm an AUNT!

I was very suprised to find out very late last night that my first niece was born at 10:51pm(at least I think) last night 5/27/09. She missed being born on Dan's birthday by a day, aww. Anyways, I have only seen a picture text of her, but she sure is a cute little baby. She was 6lbs7oz and 20inches long. She has the Soules small head too. I just can't wait to go see her tomorrow. As soon as my last class leaves, I am out the door! If pictures are upload online soon from somebody then I will put a picture up on here. So excited, more to come.

I can't believe that I have 6 days left of school(with kids). Really I see most classes 2-3 more times. I am going to miss the kids. A few more of them are starting to ask me if I will be there music teacher next year, and I have to tell them no. It's hard to do, but I don't get into too deep with them. It sucks worse when the kids want me to remind them when I am getting married, and I have to explain that one. Today one my classes just didn't come down because the teacher forgot(again!). How do you forget when it is your prep period I do not know. Anyways, I spent 20 minutes looking for them inside/outside before we finally connected and she just decided that after their potty/wash up break they'd only have about 5 minutes so they wouldn't come. You'd think I'd be happy with it, but it isn't as great as it seems. That drags testing out another day yet. AND I am sick of testing. She is a nice lady, just forgetful.

I forgot to mention that a few days ago a girl told me she wanted to be a busdriver when she grew up. She was very serious too, I bet her mom is a bus driver. Kids are so cute. Another kid was excited about my hair cut and he said "It looks especially pretty the way it curls here" as he gently outlined my bangs. I just wanted to scoop him up forever. Oh 1st graders...

I forgot how time consuming applying for jobs was/is. I spent all of last night on 2/3 applications. You'd think since my essays/resume and most of the letter are almost set to go for any job that it would be quick. It's not though, because on every friggin application you have to fill out individually your previous work experiences, etc. and fill in your address, education, blahblah a million times. Sometimes I just feel like writing DUH READ RESUME.

We'll see if I get any calls. Owatonna is going to have to make a decision faster than they want to if I get offered any other job because I will take it over waiting to potentially get screwed anyways. I really enjoy run-on sentences, don't I?

If I had more money I would go down to the ice cream stand place and get a cone or a slushy. It sounds great right now. Instead I will look into what kind of perishable food items I should get rid of before moving this weekend. Ugh.

So glad tomorrow if Friday, talent show in the afternoon so no classes. Whoooo.

teewsdee(Tuesday)

I have no followers?? Hmmm....

I burned my mouth on hot pizza, but it was very good. I felt like I deserved it(the tasty pizza, not the burn), but isn't that just what we all tell ourselves every once and a while. Mm.

I am still playing the waiting game with Owatonna. Sounds like it could drag out a long time, perhaps all summer. Cmon! I am sending my Eau Claire application in tomorrow. We'll see if they even look at it. I am also applying for some other jobs too.

The kids thought it was fun that I had new hair today. They were confused, and a lot of them thought I must be one of my sisters since I looked different. But then, they said they could tell it was me because of my voice. Heehee. Kids=funny.

I am half listening to the news on the gay marriage stuff going on. I don't know enough of what happened, etc. to make a huge opinion right now about the specific situation. HOWEVER, I completely think that gay people should be able to be married. Sue me. I just think this is so ridiculous that everyone spends so much time worrying about that. Can't we all just get along?

I am thinking I should buy a powerball, ha. I heard on the radio(from my friends at 101.3 KDWB) that is was up really high. Man, if I won the lottery I would be ecstatic. I would pay off loans, buy a house, and go on a shopping spree. Mm, speaking of sprees - good candy.

I found out this morning that I can't even get a penny back for my Florida teaching certification application. Buh bye $75. I don't know how I can pay for my emergancy Praxis test too. Grrreat. "This too shall pass" - right, mom?

I want to play sega?

I am all thrown off on what day it is. I forgot it was Tuesday. Normally I would be all about Biggest Loser but since the finale a couple weeks ago, I have not known what to do with myself Tuesday nights.

OMG, did you hear Mike Tyson's daughter died? on a treadmill? Weird and sad...

I am going to wrap it up hear. Leave comments if you follow/love me. :)

Blog #2

Before I head back to Lakeville I thought I would post again since I said I'd be better about this blog. I am ready to go back "home" but it is weird to go to that almost empty apartment. I am glad to get back to school this week. It's good for me to stay busy. I am going to spend my nights applying for jobs, cleaning, and working out. On my way home today I am meeting Grandpa and Marcia for steak at Timberlodge. I am excited to see them. I hope that I have the energy and patience to talk more about me and Josh. It's just so tiring and I am sick of it. I know that they won't judge me and I know that they won't mind talking about other things too so I shouldn't be worried.
Last night Tsa and I had a long conversation about life in general. We both are struggling with the unknowns of jobs and it is so hard for us to accept the fact that it is almost out of our control where we will end up next year. I am a major control freak, and I hate not know the future. If you dealt with me last summer you know what I mean. This time around things are different so I don't even feel more comfortable at all. We also talked about relationships and friendships more. We just feel so blessed to have our little trio, even when we piss each other off.
I graded my first and second grade tests today. They did pretty well, which is always a relief. There are still a few kids that are clueless and makes you wonder what they've done all semester, what world they've been living in. A bunch of kids drew me a picture(if they were done and waiting to do the group part they could draw on the back) and lots of them wrote things like "I love musick" "I wish you wer my teacher becuz you are the best teachr ever" and "Ms. Sols rocks as a musick teacher". Apparently, someone doesn't rock as their spelling teacher, jk! It is really great though, and sometimes I'd look at the name and be like, REALLY? Some shy boy, or some naughty girl. Weird.
Well, now I hear that the other Heyers had their baby so congrats to them and their new bugger.
Went to the parade in EC this morning. I thought all of the bands sounded pretty great. It's hard to even compare them. I also missed playing, but then I don't miss teaching band. It's a funny thing. I hope that I can play more this summer, anyone want to play duets? Unless you're good - then no.
I just rewatched the Biggest Loser finale on Demand at Becky and Theresa's. Who does that? Who watches a 3 hour rerun? I do. Part of me wants to gain 100 lbs just to be able to go on the show. How does that sound? Meh. OK I won't.
We've also been watching Pretty Wicked. Stupid show, but WHY did we spend the whole day watching the whole season?! Reality TV is dumb but addicting, that's why.
I have a LOT of things at Becky and Theresa's, in their storage. I REALLY don't want to move more next weekend and then have to do it all over again at the end of the summer. Hopefully Becky is able to move all of her stuff out so that I can move right into her room next weekend. I don't want to do too much shifting of things. I want to be done as soon as possible.
I guess I better look up directions and get on the road. Love to you all. Thanks again for my friends out there that are supporting me right now. Only one person is on my shitlist so far. :)

Fresh start

I have wanted to be better about blogging for a long time now. I am hoping the new blog will help me regularly keep friends/family updated, as well as serving me with perhaps some kind of outlet. I am sure most blogs will be pointless and silly, but some might be heavily emotional. We'll see where this takes us.
Yes, Josh and I ended our engagement. That's all you need to know. The best thing to come out of this so far, if I can even comment on that at this point, would be that I see the support from my friends and family. I love so many people, and they really do love me. It can be so overwhelming right now.
I was bored at the apartment on Friday night, home alone but didn't want to pack up my car and drive to Eau Claire yet so I got myself a haircut. It's different, but I think I like it. I got bangs, thanks to the pushing from Theresa. Then I went on a mission to cover up those darn gray hairs so I died it! I am getting more and more used to the way it looks and feels on my forehead.
This coming week is my last week living at the apartment in Lakeville. It's pretty much empty with the exception of my bed, clothes, TV, my dishes, and a few other things. I have a feeling I am going to be bored, but I do have cleaning to do so hopefully that will keep me busy. I also have jobs to apply for now too.
Speaking of jobs, I am feeling so weird about next year. I thought I would love to stay in Owatonna next year if it becomes a possibility. I think I still do, but I am thinking so much about how lonely it will be to live there all alone. While I LOVE the other music teachers, all of my younger teacher friends are leaving due to budget cuts. The whole starting over thing with friends is really stressful for me. I am so lucky to have awesome friends in Becky and Theresa, but at the same time it has sometimes made it hard to make other friends, maybe? I don't know. I wouldn't trade them for the world. They are the most amazing friends you could ever want. I wish everyone could experience that kind of bond. I am applying for the elementary music position in Eau Claire, but I pretty much know that it is going to be filled internally. Would that not be amazing though? I would hate to leave Owatonna, but I would do it to be in Eau Claire by my friends and family. It's a great place and I have missed it so much.
I am so stressed out that I have basically lost my appetite. I had been trying to lose weight all year and have lost 20 lbs. I haven't been working out because there is so much going on, but I haven't been eating much either. Hopefully I can get back to a routine and continue to do this the right way. I just don't know what I would do if I gained back the weight that I worked so hard to lose right now. I am also so fricken tired all of the time. Sometimes I am so exhausted that I sleep like a rock. Last night, I didn't sleep very well because Becky's bed kind of caves in and I didn't want to spoon her. Maybe it was sleeping with someone else again. I haven't slept with anyone else in the bed for almost a week now. I took a long nap today and I still feel like crap. I wish it was just summer already. I hate feeling in between on everything right now. At the same time, I am going to miss the kids at school so much. They make me so happy(most of the time). It's hard to believe that in a couple of weeks I might not see many of them ever again.
I have to quite being such a debby downer. Thanks to everyone for all of the love and support this past week. I am glad that people are so understand of me not calling them back, etc. because I just don't want to talk anymore. Writing this is different for some reason. Maybe because I don't need anyone's opinion and I can take more time to articulate myself.
On a better note, I am excited to almost be an aunt. I keep forgetting that this is real because I never see Christa and Dan. I hope that I can be a fun and important part of my neice's life. Gah, I want to see her. Also, excited to see Joe and Steph's little boy soon too. AND, of course congrats to Angie and Jake for their beautiful son Ryan. I can't wait to be a mom some day.
Well, I hope everyone is having a good Memorial Day weekend. Hopefully my next post will be a little more uplifting.
Love Liz